NEW YORK â Of the many stories that have stuck with Ben Affleck from his Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, one has especially resonated for the actor. Recovery is often described as a process of removing a damaging habit from your life. One man articulated it in a more positive way. He said he quit drinking so he could be a free man.
âThatâs one of the most moving things thatâs stayed with me,â says Affleck. âThe desire for that freedom, and so I can be accountable to my kids.â
After a turbulent few years, Affleck, 47, is trying to reclaim his life and reorder his career. In Affleckâs new film, âThe Way Back,â both missions converge. He plays a former high-school basketball star brought back to coach his alma mater's team in Gavin OâConnor's movie, which opens March 6. The film has obvious similarities to Affleckâs life. Itâs about a man struggling with alcoholism, divorce and midlife disappointment. It's about the hard road to recovery, a path that Affleck has been walking, with a few stumbles along the way, the last three years.
âI donât know all the answers. Iâm only an expert in my own failings,â Affleck says. âBut the more expert you become in your own failings, interestingly, the less likely you are to repeat them, Iâve found. That is how my life has been getting better."
Affleck smiles. âYou notice how you never succeed and all your wildest dreams come true and you go: âI got to change something!â Itâs when you hit a stumbling block that you say: âOK, letâs be really honest.ââ
And honesty is what Affleck is now practicing, to a degree rarely seen in Hollywood, let alone for someone whose personal ups and downs have been such regular fodder for tabloids. In an interview with The Associated Press early last week, Affleck was candid and clear-eyed about his battle for sobriety and the roots of his drinking. Occasionally his voice quavered but mostly Affleck spoke earnestly and straightforwardly. He seemed freshly unburdened. Making âThe Way Back,â he said, helped him.
âSometimes just feeling those feelings again purges them a little bit and frees you a little bit,â says Affleck. âThis movie was hard to make. Sometimes it was painful. And sometimes I was embarrassed. And sometimes I couldnât believe my life had any similarity to this.â
When Brad Ingelsbyâs script came to Ben Affleck, it was titled âThe Has-Been.â Affleck was being pitched to direct. Coming off the best picture-winning âArgo,â he last helmed the Prohibition-era crime thriller âLive by Night,â an ambitious gangster film that made a modest impression at the box office. Affleck immediately connected with the character: Jack Cunningham, a former star athlete whose alcoholism, isolation and grief is lifted by a reluctant return to basketball.
Affleck appealed to OâConnor to direct. The two previously collaborated on the 2016 thriller âThe Accountant,â and OâConnor ("Warrior," âMiracleâ) has proven adept at channeling larger themes through sports dramas. But until they began working on âThe Way Back,â OâConnor didnât know the extent of Affleckâs problem.
âOnce we started to prep the movie, he went into rehab. He sort of fell off the wagon. So now we were prepping the movie while he was in rehab and we thought it was going to fall apart,â said OâConnor. âBut he still wanted to do it. When he got out, he was incredibly raw and vulnerable and I think a little lost just in regard to having to confront the demons.â
Affleck says his drinking worsened around the time his marriage to Jennifer Garner was falling apart. Garner and Affleck, who have three children together, separated in 2015 and divorced in 2018. In those years, Affleck has made several trips to rehab. Last October, he was captured drunk on camera, which he then granted was âa slip.â
âThe times that Iâve relapsed, personally, have been not been because Iâve had some bad thing happen. Itâs been when I thought I had it licked,â Affleck says. âAnd the next thing, youâre on TMZ and itâs a disaster. That teaches me that itâs just not something I can do.â
All of that pain, and then some, went into âThe Way Back.â For a scene in which Jack makes amends to his wife, OâConnor told Affleck he was just going let the camera roll.
âIt was probably the second take, Ben just had a breakdown. Iâm getting chills thinking about it. It was like the dam broke and everything came out,â says OâConnor. âI just remember the crew, everyone was frozen, watching him bear his soul. It was obviously real."
OâConnor credits Warner Bros. Chairman Toby Emmerich with green-lighting âThe Way Back,â a rarely seen thing in todayâs Hollywood: an intensely personal, adult-driven studio-made drama. It was made relatively inexpensively, with a budget of $25 million, and it marks a clear pivot for Affleck. He last year left behind Batman after several âJustice Leagueâ films. The standalone Batman film, once to star and be directed by Affleck, is instead being made by Matt Reeves with Robert Pattinson in the role.
âWhen I had the opportunity to direct and star in the Batman stand-alone movie, I realized I wasnât passionate about it,â says Affleck. âMy tastes have changed. Iâm interested in different kinds of movies.â Upcoming films include the Patricia Highsmith adaptation âDeep Waterâ and âThe Last Duel,â a medieval revenge drama.
Battles with alcoholism are never over, but they can get gradually easier to win. For now, at least, Affleck feels like he's grown. He's humbler. More honest. And closer to feeling free.
âI would not wish it on myself principally because of my children and because it has caused them pain, which I would give anything to change,â says Affleck. âBut I canât change the past. I can go from today. I can make sure today Iâm good. Thatâs what Iâve got. Iâm a guy doing good today.â
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Jake Coyle, The Associated Press